![]() Hence, this time I’m taking a different route to challenge myself. Not surprisingly, that’s why we’re all subtly trying to compete and outrun each other, thinking that’s the only way we can find acceptance and meaning in our lives. Nowadays with social media too, we not only have to have the best within the group but also be the best among the whole human population.Įssentially, it’s the belief that “success is to be just like everyone else, but better”. This quote explains why we are all striving to be “influencers”, and to be an “influencer”, one has to be doing extraordinary things and be the best among the rest. In many instances, we equate ordinary with boring or, even more dangerous, ordinary has become synonymous with meaningless. In other words, worth is measured by fame and fortune. “Our society seems to measure the value of people’s contributions (and sometimes their entire lives) by their level of public recognition. I also didn’t wanna be seen as the rich spoiled kid who’s not capable enough to live out on her own. I wanted to control what people thought of me. I needed to be ‘_’ enough to feel belonged. I was always hustling for worthiness and perfectionism, in order to numb the “I'm not good enough because I’m not doing enough” or “I don’t deserve all these blessings because I’m not good enough” feelings. my OCD with food and exercise, FOMO etc.). I constantly blamed the environment every time I’ve lapsed, rather than accepting my flaws and addressing the root cause of my problems(e.g. I rationalized that I was just a wanderlust and my desire to be constantly moving about and staying as far away as possible from home were because I was being open to new experiences and growth opportunities, hoping that it will eventually lead me to find my purpose in life.īut TBH, I was just escaping from the truth- that I was never contented with who I was and where I’m at. In fact, once you get up close to the other side, you’ll see that although the weeds might be different, you’ll still have to deal with them as well. #Im away from home PatchIt’s greener where you water it.Įvery patch of grass has its potential to be healthy and rich, so it’s how we wanna perceive the situation and make the best out of every circumstance. Yes, I’ve realized that the grass is not always greener on the other side. People are constantly asking me where I’m headed to next, what grand adventure awaits but this time I’m actually choosing to stay at home for a while, for now, however surprising it may sound to some. But I was still unemployed, enjoying every passing day in my humble abode chilling with my family, doing the things I like to do every day while scouting around locally looking for opportunities that align with my passion and values. Rewinding back to December 2018: It was more than a month since I came back to Malaysia. For the past 5 years, I‘ve lived in Canada for 4 years, Japan for a year, and traveled solo and with friends across continents ranging from a weekend to 2 months. ![]()
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